Since we last spoke

Hey there folks, it's been a while. This feels like a comeback of sorts, only instead of coming back to fame and fortune I am only coming back to my small forgotten corner of the internet, still stained by my pissy adolescent rage tears.

Due to a rampant cannabis habit that developed long after I knew you, I can hardly remember at all where we left off, but I can feel pretty safe in assuming I was impotently pining after some classmate. I can't say I'm much like that nowadays, in the infatuation front. Mind you, all that was a full-fledged relationship ago, so it's probably pretty easy to see how my position has changed.
A relationship that kept me from my friends and put me on edge. A relationship that had me talking him down from a ledge on a weekly basis. A relationship that, at a time of my own mental uncertainty, forced me into a role of emotional safety net.

But that's all far behind me now. About two years behind me, I think.

Another thing that feels very far behind me is sex.

Wow what a convenient segue that perfectly brings me to the next topic up for lamenting.

I have been celibate since August 2015. At the time of writing, that makes 16 continuous months of purity. Since then I can count the number of times I've experienced romantic contact on one hand. Yeah, that's pretty bad, but did I mention I am in college??? And I have a smartphone??? that has tinder on it??? How have I not touched another set of genitals yet??? Someone please send help???

Anyway that's pretty much the greatest weight on my soul at this point. I basically have no self-worth at all and several months of councilling have not helped but whatever haha :)

The moral of the story is that my own psychological gridlock keeps me from establishing a relationship or even feel strong feelings of attraction so get ready for me to talk about THAT in future episodes of My Neurotic Tendancies™a new Netflix™Original series. Oh and no more complaining about crushes.

Thanks for listening I guess? I don't know what you want from me at this point.