Hello?

Can anyone even see me? Is that why everyone is keeping distance? Because I am just flickering in and out of existence like a dying flame? Or is it because I only exist for kicks. People only come looking for something fun. and that's all I am. Something fun. It's cool I guess. I never really liked people anyway. If I see one on my way to my daily refuge I'll be sure to smile and wave I'm sure they wont follow me. why would they want to? It's just a stupid river. Made less interesting with the addition of myself. If I see someone there I will be sure to maybe say a few words. Maybe a few more if they seem like they want to talk. If not I'll keep my distance. Sit and reflect on the other side of the island. Find a sharp enough rock. I guess there is a certain pride to being a loner, if that's really what I must become. Some sort of maturity, mystery. Like I have no need for the squabbles of people. But I am not mysterious, evidently you can see right through me. I am not mature, I am a petty child. And I do have need for the squabbles of people. I really really do. I want more than just squabbles. But whatever. I'll just recluse. In a few years I'll live in the city. farther away from people as I have ever been. Living in the same place as someone is not the same thing as living with them let alone loving with them. Well goodbye everyone. or should I say anyone Who is still listening.