I miss you more than I should.

Are you actually here or is this just a dream?

this is stupid. Stupid stupid stupid stupid. what am I supposed to write about? There are so many things to write about but I can't think of any. and to think I had to put pants on for this.
"Do a blog post!" they said "It'll be fun!" they said. Well look at me now!
Disgruntled inner monologue is disgruntled.
Sure I have things I wanna blog about. But they are things that no person should blog about. except other people because I wanna read that shit.

I have no idea what I am talking about.

Ambiguous, you say? Then ambiguous I shall be!

I want things to start happening. I want to eat easter eggs and watch movies and not be stupid and lonely. and stupid.

Hey things.

Start happening.
Like right now.

To reiterate: I still have no idea what I am talking about.

I wanna see if I can go 24 hours without leaving my room for any reason.
But I have no self control. I would leave to get nachos or tea or something.

I wonder if I could spend an entire day sleeping. I would try if that didn't mean risking losing valuable human interaction with certain significant people.

God I'm stupid.

I should write a song.
Wait, never mind, I just remembered that I have no song writing or lyrical talent whatsoever.

I need company like now. Specific company.

uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugh.

Spring Break is so boring when you have no friends or anything to do!
I would go for a walk, but I hate nature. I went for a walk the other day, slipped several times on a muddy hillside and concluded that nature is a dick. YOU HEAR ME NATURE? YOU ARE A DICK. ESPECIALLY WINTER.

Winter is like Nature's PMS.
Spring is like Nature on some kind of unstable narcotic.
Summer is like Nature when it doesn't feel like being a dick, and instead repents for it's misdeeds by being way too kind.
Autumn is like Nature when it feels a mood swing coming on.

I suck at analogies.

But there is a good point in this one quote I read a while ago: "If nature is so great, why has mankind spent so long trying to avoid it?"... or something like that.

spring break should end so stuff starts happening.

Blah.

Happy now?

JENNY DON'T READ THIS

Jenny. Hey Jenny. Stop reading this. I know you are reading this. Stop it. You are making me sad inside. Stop reading this please.

You've laid down one brick. Please don't let it be your last.

Oh my...

Things I hate about myself. (Pt 1 of 7842)

1. I am physically repulsive
2. I am an attention seeker.
3. I am pretty much the most annoying person I know.
4. I am self-defeating.
5. I am lazy.
6. I have no motivation
7. I lack confidence.
8. I am unintelligent.
9. I have the personality of a piece of emo styrofoam.
10. I am socially inept.
11. I am mentally weak.
12. I am physically weak.
13. I get depressed in social situations
14. I base my self worth on other people's opinion of me (Spoiler alert: I have no self worth)
15. I seek sympathy.
16. I am constantly fishing for compliments.
17. I am a whiny bitch.